You are my addition..

It do matters:)

2010-09-18T05:33:00.000-07:00

Actually family is a thing that acc u thru all ur life. I agree I have been neglecting my family ESP daddy side who live quite far away frm me. I know that harsh words have been said. I do admit I do have wrong, and I will promise to visit grandma next yr together with my little one. I have coming to sense after being preg or even going up much more matured than before. But the words that came up were hurtful but I will forgive and forget. If u dun forget, u will still rmb that thing whenever there is misunderstanding occur. That's my own thinking. Even little one agree as she was kicking me when I am typing. Therefore I am still struggling whether I am wanna go as cfm there will be weird situation at cousin wedding but once again cousin was right, she getting married once in a lifetime and If I ran away everytime then there will be no changes for the weird situation. I dun wanna to stay like that forever. Thereafter I will go cousin wedding meanwhile I can go see grandma and let her see my big tummy and hw I look walking like a humpty dumpty:)) last of all this are all my thinking no offences:)

2010-09-04T03:09:00.000-07:00

I just here to upload smth photos:) 2 pics with my tummy.Yet ppl say its so small:( last pic: baby saying hi!!! pardon the first one i look kinda shag w/o make up:)

Btw if u mummies have any baby items eg like breastpump,playpen ,carrier etc (expt clothing) for sale just leave me a tag i will contact u:) or probably just e mail me @ zhang.clarissa@gmail.com:) Pics provided pls:))) Still cracking my brain for baby precious name any idea tag me!!! and last but nt least i looking for a laptop anyone selling do tag me too:)

2010-08-22T01:48:00.000-07:00

Well was busy with part time jobs and daily routine and yea i lazy afterall:) At mummy hse currently, waiting for sis to get ready so we can head to cousin samantha hse to see his baby boy kayden:) He is nearly one years old yet i have dun have the time to see him. Still struggling with precious name i really dunno wad to name her. Getting more and more excited as my tummy is really can be seen and i am really enjoying this period of time to buy precious stuffs and clothing as well as coco has given me some of her stuffs that she is no longer using. Thanks Coco:) LAst week went to NUH for detailed scan baby was really good girl even the gyane praise her for that. As gynae cnt feel her heartbeat after several trying, precious turn her body so gynae can scan her heartbeat. Dr chua even mention that she gonna be a real chubby and active baby once she is out cause she already like this in my tummy:) updated soon once i have picture of baby precious ultrascan photos:)

2010-07-16T05:19:00.000-07:00

Went for gynae check up today. Everything was fine:) heard baby heartbeat and Dr chua say will have a detail scan on the next check up. So i ask her whether can i know the gender by today so she say YES. Went for the scan and expected I likely to be having a baby girl, as i have six sense of having girl. Broke the news to hubby well he is glad:) As now i am brain storming for baby names. Wanted Tricia as baby's name. Still considering:) update baby ultrascan pics more when i am free:)

2010-07-12T01:02:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the late update.. I was resting at home for nearly 2 weeks plus..I just came back frm a operation..I having my cervix tighten up.I have cramping the whole night,so unbearable:( Hope baby will be safe and sound.. next appointment on the 16th for baby gender!!! so excited:)

2010-06-26T00:45:00.000-07:00

Ystd went to visit the gynae for baby's monthly check up. Heard the heartbeat everything was fine but Dr chua wanted to have my cervix tied up as i have symptons of loose cervix for my last miscarriage..I was nervous at the same time rest assured that nothing gonna happen to my this pregnancy anymore:) After the last miscarriage i kept having some kind like phobia that every now and then i felt pain i will starting to get nervous.And also its nearing to 5 months get me more and more worried that the same thing will happen again.. Thus this operation will lead me feel better.. Lastly Dr chua heard everything that happen to my last pregnancy she told me that my miscarriage can be save ans the baby shld be alive but that hospital did nt wanted to try their very best to save it.. Disgrace for that hospital!! last of all wish me luck for my operation:)

2010-06-07T01:52:00.000-07:00

A picture of my baby!!

Currently went back to my own house:) Ages since i update my blog too busy with work as i have change to part time instead of full time too tiring for me..Yup i promise will announce once i am ready. I am once again preg.. I currently 11 weeks preg and i have been changing gynae at last i have a suitable one. Thanks coco for recommending her gynae to me:) Its at NUH and its much much nearer then KKH and place is much more advanced most of all the waiting time is much much shorter.Went for check up on the 5th of june, doctor say everything is going well for baby and me. Done the scan yet baby still do a somersault for me..Nearly in tears:) Since i have a miscarriage months back my gynae was very concern about me and baby.. Hope everything will be fine..Thumbs ups for my gynae!!!

2010-04-18T02:30:00.000-07:00

I quit my job once again. Feeling a little nausea now a days. Have to rest at from now on and start to work part time to save up as i really gonnna need lots of money for the next few months. Hubby is sick again. He has been coughing non-stop for ard a week. Btw if u guys have any part time job offering pls do let me know. Thanks:) I glad That god give me and hubby such wonderful gift and i will apperciate it and hopefully everything go well. After it had really stable down i will blog about the good news again:)

2010-03-29T05:43:00.000-07:00

Currently resting at home, I quitted my job. Well will be resting meanwhile giving myself a break:) Has a better offer all thanks to fairy:) Meeting sister tomorrow for swimming at Mr chan hse (probably) and going to enrol for driving license at BBDC with hubby.Hubby was thinking will I pass it?. But hope i can cause i am free now..therefore will take this free time to enrol and hopefully can get it asap..Has not been feeling well now a days hope will get better in time:)

2010-03-22T22:59:00.000-07:00

2010-02-20T07:00:00.000-08:00

To passer-by: I hope u understand i dun need them to say such hurtful words to me.. They did not even know wad happen in the beginning yet they say all this words but all along how they treat me frm small till nw i dun mind. Cause they are still my relatives. Thanks for remindind me. but all along they are still my closest. I love them all and dun need them or dun expect them to say this words to hurt me

2010-02-18T05:26:00.000-08:00

TO WHOEVER IT IS WHO SAY THAT I MARRY TO RICH PPL THEREFORE NV COME TO VISIT, PLS I DUN NEED ANY COMMENTS. I WENT MALAYSIA TODAY THEN COME BACK. I HAVE TO GO MY HUSBAND HSE ITS A RULE ON THE FIRST YR OF MARRIAGE MUST GO. . .GET SOMETHING CLEAR BEFORE SAYING PPL. I RESPECT U AS MY ELDER BUT I DUN NEED U GUYS TO SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT. I BELEIVE WAD GOES ARD COMES ARD:)

2010-02-10T09:27:00.000-08:00

Waiting for hubby to be back...Its new year soon really getting rather excited bout it:) Going malaysia to shop and while visit hubby relatives at malaysia.. This yr hubby and me will be celebrating our valentine in the hotel:) hubby's dad book a hotel near the sea:) sounds romantic ..btw happy new yr to all of u and pics willl be uploaded

2010-02-06T05:57:00.000-08:00

Dear readers, my sister-in law and me open a blogshop as we wanted to sell all the dresses we brought frm thailand therefore we can go again to buy more dresses to open our dream shop.. So pls feel free to visit www.just-selling.blogspot.com to buy my dresses yea:) much apperciate!!!

2010-02-03T04:27:00.000-08:00

This is one of the most notorious and worst cases of torture murder ever recorded in history. It is also one of the most horrifying and heartbreaking.
Exactly twenty years ago, a sixteen year-old girl was going through the most unimaginable pain, waiting for the endless suffering she was going through to end. For 44 days, nobody helped her.
Her killers are now free men. Justice has never been served, not even after 20 years.
Once you hear the story, it is not easily forgotten. Her 44 days of suffering will forever be known.
WARNING: FOR STRONG AND COMPASSIONATE HEARTS ONLY:
On November 22, 1989:Junko Furuta was a girl in Japan who was held captive in a house by four boys. There, she was raped countless times, then tortured to death in unimaginable and incomprehensible ways for 44 days. She was 16 years old.
————————————————————–http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Junko_Furuta——————————————————————(from Wikipedia)
The crime:In November of 1988, Boy A (then 18), Boy B (Jo Kamisaku, then 17; Kamisaku was a new family name he took after being released from prison [1]), Boy C (then 16) and Boy D (then 17) from Tokyo abducted and held Furuta, a second year high school (grade 11) student from Saitama Prefecture in Misato, for 44 days. They kept her captive in the house owned by the parents of Boy C.
To forestall a manhunt, Boy A coerced Furuta into calling her own parents and telling them that she had run away from home, but was with “a friend” and was not in danger. He also browbeat her into posing as one of the boys’ girlfriends when the parents of the house where she was held were around, but when it became clear that the parents would not call the police, he dropped this pretext. Furuta tried to escape several times, begging the parents more than once to help her, but they did nothing, apparently out of fear that Boy A would hurt them. Boy A was at the time a low-level yakuza leader and had bragged that he could use his connections to kill anyone who interfered.
According to their statements at their trial, the four of them raped her, beat her, introduced foreign objects including an iron rod into her vagina, made her drink her own urine and was fed cockroaches, inserted fireworks into her anus, and set them off, forced Furuta to masturbate, cut her nipple with pliers, dropped dumbbells onto her stomach, and burned her with cigarettes and lighters. (One of the burnings was punishment for attempting to call the police.) At one point her injuries were so severe that according to one of the boys it took more than an hour for her to crawl downstairs to use the bathroom. They also related that “possibly a hundred different people” knew that Furuta had been imprisoned there, but it is not clear if this means they visited the house at different times while she was imprisoned there, or themselves either raped or abused her. When the boys refused to let her leave, she begged them on several occasions to “kill (her) and get it over with”.
On January 4, 1989, using one of the boys’ loss at mah-jongg as a pretext, the four beat her with an iron barbell, poured lighter fluid on her legs, arms, face and stomach, and set her on fire. She died later that day of shock. The four boys claimed that they were not aware of how badly injured she was, and that they believed she had been malingering.
The killers hid her corpse in an 55-gallon drum filled with cement; the perpetrators disposed the drum in a tract of reclaimed land in Koto, Tokyo.
Arrest and punishment
The boys were arrested and tried as adults; but, because of Japanese handling of crimes committed by juveniles, their identities were sealed by the court. However, a weekly magazine Shukan Bunshun reported their real names, claiming “Human rights aren’t needed for brutes.”[2] Furuta’s real name and details about her personal life were reported exhaustively in the media. Kamisaku was judged as a sub leader, at least according to the official trial.
The four boys pled guilty to a reduced charge of “committing bodily injury that resulted in death”, rather than murder. Boy A’s parents sold their house for approximately 50 million yen and paid this as compensation to Furuta’s family.[citation needed]
For his participation in the crime, Kamisaku served eight years in a juvenile prison before he was released, in August 1999. In July 2004, he was arrested for assaulting an acquaintance, whom he believed to be luring a girlfriend away from him, and allegedly bragged about his earlier infamy. [1] Kamisaku was sentenced to seven years in prison for the beating.
Junko’s parents were dismayed by the sentences received by their daughter’s killers, and enjoined a civil suit against the parents of the boy in whose home the crimes were committed. When some of the convictions were overturned on the basis of problematic physical evidence (the semen and pubic hair recovered from the body did not match those of the boys who were arrested), the lawyer handling the civil suit decided there was no case to be made and refused to represent them further. (There is speculation that the evidence may have been contaminated—for example, by unidentified persons who raped Furuta.
One of the most disturbing parts of this true story is that her killers are now free. After putting Junko Furuta through all that suffering, they are free men.
****-What they did to her and the suffering-****
These horrifying things done to Junko Furuta had been collected through the Japanese court trial of the case, and blogs from 1989. They show the pain that Junko Furuta had to endure before she was finally dead. All this had happened to her while she was still alive. They are disturbing, but the truth.
All of this had happened.
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DAY 1: November 22, 1988: KidnappedKept captive in house, and posed as one of boy’s girlfriendRaped (over 400 times in total)Forced to call her parents and tell them she had run awayStarved and malnutritionedFed cockroaches to eat and urine to drinkForced to masturbateForced to strip in front of othersBurned with cigarette lightersForeign objects inserted into her vagina/anus
DAY 11: December 1, 1988: Severely beat up countless timesFace held against concrete ground and jumped onHands tied to ceiling and body used as a punching bagNose filled with so much blood that she can only breath through her mouthDumbbells dropped onto her stomachVomited when tried to drink water (her stomach couldn’t accept it)Tried to escape and punished by cigarette burning on armsFlammable liquid poured on her feet and legs, then lit on fireBottle inserted into her anus, causing injury
DAY 20: December10, 1989: Unable to walk properly due to severe leg burnsBeat with bamboo sticksFireworks inserted into anus and litHands smashed by weights and fingernails crackedBeaten with golf clubCigarettes inserted into vaginaBeaten with iron rods repeatedlyWinter; forced outside to sleep in balconySkewers of grilled chicken inserted into her vagina and anus, causing bleeding
DAY 30: Hot wax dripped onto faceEyelids burned by cigarette lighterStabbed with sewing needles in chest areaLeft nipple cut and destroyed with pliersHot light bulb inserted into her vaginaHeavy bleeding from vagina due to scissors insertionUnable to urinate properlyInjuries were so severe that it took over an hour for her to crawl downstairs and use the bathroomEardrums severely damagedExtreme reduced brain size
DAY 40: Begged her torturers to “kill her and get it over with”
January 1, 1989: Junko greets the New Years Day aloneBody mutilatedUnable to move from the ground
DAY 44: January 4, 1989: The four boys beat her mutilated body with an iron barbell, using a loss at the game of Mah-jongg as a pretext. She is profusely bleeding from her mouth and nose. They put a candle’s flame to her face and eyes.
Then, lighter fluid was poured onto her legs, arms, face and stomach, and then lit on fire. This final torture lasted for a time of two hours.
Junko Furuta died later that day, in pain and alone. Nothing could compare 44 days of suffering she had to go through.
When her mother heard the news and details of what had happened to her daughter, she fainted. She had to undergo a psychiatric outpatient treatment . Imagine her endless pain.
Her killers are now free men. Justice was never served, not even after 20 years.They deserve a punishment much greater than they had put upon Furuta, for putting an innocent girl through the most unbearable suffering.
This story from 1989 is true. Please spread her story around. Everyone should know about the existence of Junko Furuta’s unimaginable and incomprehensible suffering, and this is why this group has been made.
Invite your friends. Never let her story be forgotten. If this story changes the life of at least one person then it has been worth it.

Rest In Eternal Peace,Junko Furuta1989-Eternity

2010-01-10T06:20:00.000-08:00

I have been very busy! I have been a little mad of getting preg.. Everyday I have been feeling nausea and i feel bloated. Telling hubby everyday that i feel preg,that leads him to think i am mad.. I have tender.. current company is shit!!! management is shit!! Dun really want to furthur talk about i will continue to work hard finding better job and getting preg.. I think i will good news very fast:) Btw happy new year!!!

2009-12-10T10:22:00.000-08:00

Baby is damn freaking funny, he said something that make us laugh until we have stomach cramp man. Just want to blog to emphasis how cute my baby can be.

Joke of the day

As far as we know, normally we will use google to search for stuff. Baby want to search for some stuff so sis help him out. Sis when to 'google' and search for it, baby suddenly use: "Sis! you use goggles to search one uh? Wtf!!!! What the hell is goggles man. Haha, seriously he is a computer idiot man.

Second scenario, Baby and me was talking about my working stuff. Then he pop out this question, "you can take your mentality leave right? Anyone have any idea what is mentality leave? Haha, actually what he mean was maternity leave.

He really makes my day and of course i will still love him no matter what. :)

2009-12-08T21:37:00.000-08:00

As you guys have been telling me to post so here i am:)only some are here.. the rest i still need to upload and waiting for my photographer to send me.. promise soon will be up:)

2009-12-05T05:17:00.001-08:00

BF... no should be calling hubby:) was out with his friends went home to acc mum and dad. well i was married,i will miss my parents thou. congrats samantha cousin who gave birth a baby boy!! everyone around me is getting preg and giving birth.. i should be going 6 months preg but nah too bad.. baby boy mummy still miss you:( enough of that i have to keep myself busy and also healthy therefore to get preg again..promise hubby and i will work hard for it!!

2009-12-01T23:29:00.000-08:00

hey ladies, thanks for everything you have say and done for me:) photos on that day is being upload to FB thanks to my sister who help me tagged..I did not do anything at all!!!..Thanks truckloads.. I love you guys!!! picture are at FB..

2009-11-21T01:44:00.001-08:00

I am so exicted!!! Tomorrow gonna be a big day:) I'm getting married!!!!Promise will be back with lots lots photos..I am proud to be mrs sim:)

2009-11-09T01:22:00.000-08:00

2 of november 2009 is a unexpected date for me.Ard 4 am in the morning,Bf sent me to KKH, the first word i hear from the doctor saying" you are having a miscarriage", baby is coming soon. My water bag have burst.I was stunned. Bf was there for me thru out the whole day at ard noon time, I gave birth. It was a baby boy:) with no heart beat..I have no choice but to let the baby go.Bf went to see our baby for the last time but i was not allowed as i can't move..Thats was the end of our baby boy..Till today i still cannot let it go, i still cry in the middle of the night, but too bad we have no fate..

Baby, rest in peace
Mummy love you:)

2009-10-17T23:12:00.000-07:00

hey ladies, I am back from my busy life.. So sorry i really busy bout my work. Baby is very healthy thanks for you ladies care and concern. Next month will be knowing baby's gender. Will keep you guys update..Weddng preparation goes very smoothly..next month will be our weddings;) excited!!! will update with my wedding photos:)

2009-09-09T08:41:00.000-07:00

Sorry i have been update lesser and lesser. working is tiring,but i need to survive for baby's future:)went for my first check- up on last month..Had urine test,measuring of height and weight and ultrascan..The nurses help me to measure the height and weight say that" ah yo, you so skinny still preg" :) next ultrascan i can see clearly the baby heartbeat that make me beyond happiness..Btw i say something that piss baby off..the nurse ask me the father of the child i say' no father '. so baby insist of accompany me this month for check up:)

2009-08-22T10:03:00.000-07:00

Working was tiring for me now a days. Bf say baby was naughty cause i feel nausea almost 24/7. working and running to toliet to and fro is not a good thing for me. Baby is gonna be 3 months soon. I am so excited:) Check up on 28th. Next month will be a busy month for me and bf, wedding photos and stuffs make us cannot handle.Bf told me to stop working by the end of this month cause he does not want me to tired myself and i gonna tender soon

tags replies--yeye: saw yr blog, i know who you are:)

2009-08-15T19:40:00.000-07:00

Replies to all tags: Thanks all for your care and concern:) I will take care myself,No worries:)
P.s to yeye: I have dun have msn:) Number??updates will be soon updated:)

2009-08-07T07:17:00.000-07:00

I so excited:) Its a joy to me and boyfriend,even to our family and friends:) It came in a sudden we all did not expect it..Thanks god for giving me ths gift i will treasure it no matter wat..last but not least thanks sister for giving me much much support within this period of time.And baby boy,you have been going thru hardship.dun worry after the rain you will see rainbow:)

P.S: its been 2 months and 5 days;)

2009-07-26T06:06:00.000-07:00

Clubbing last night:)Rebel then powerhouse..Not really drunk last night.But did enjoy.Mei feng did not join me last night but meet knew friends last night that exactly the same name as me just that she is K instead of C..No photos ystd nv bring my camera out..Working tomorrow..update pics soon:)

2009-07-16T04:49:00.000-07:00

Sorry lovelies, I really dun have time to upload my pics for the pat few days:) so here I am:)

2009-07-10T04:22:00.000-07:00

Hey lovelies:) Most of all happy birthday to myself..I did enjoy this past few days esp with bf's accompany..Darling you're the best:)

Thanks for the greeting and wishes by

-Percie my BFF!! I love you!!:)

-Angela besties:)

- Anna loves:)thanks for yr birthdae kiss!!

-Sissy darling:)Thanks for yr birthdae kiss!!and dinner treat

-Naza bitch:)

-Sarimah love:)Thanks for yr red packets:)

-stanley:)

-Shimin:)

-Huili:)

-Fairy:)

(Baby's friends)

-Guicheng:)

-Ah seng:)

-Dennis:)

-Meifeng:)

-Mole guy(sry i forgot yr name)

-Jolene:)

-Airin:)

-My skinfood lovelies:)

Last but not least, Thanks mummy and daddy for the camera!!

And Baby boy thanks for yr everything!!

present and pics will be upload soon

Thanks truckloads:)

2009-07-04T08:25:00.000-07:00

I'm back for updates:)Yup i changed job again, but this time well i found a really good job that have lovely paywise,lovely collegues to keep me entertain and lovely old mummy to play and care bout us (btw old mummy i am refering to my manager :p) regardless of standing long hours that cause my legs to ache..But its a rather tiring job but bf realise that i really put on effort to go work everyday unlike my usual past MC like nobody business:) Just a small update, picture will be soon upload and i will relink you guys: )

Just for yr info, i working at skinfood so if you ladies wanna get staff purchase, i will try getting for you:)
Gonna end it. gonna knock off real soon

2009-06-22T05:30:00.000-07:00

I am, back to update my blog of mine:) Just went facebook to snatch photos from angela besties as my bf is sleeping soundly at home and i am very boring!!

Went out with angela and giwah few days back,went bugis and i brought a top, 1 pair of slippers and some fake nails:) wemt to eat dessert that turns out really great then went to meet bf:)

If you're gonna be heartless.I'll gonna be ruthless:)

2009-06-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

I found out something recently and i think that gonna be the final answer. I found out that afterall we dun belong together,we dun click at all,we dun suit each other even how many times i tried but all my efforts went to the drain. I always think that if i put in efforts in relationship,i will see the outcome i wanted but how childish can i be? I not sad but i am disappointed, i did not want to cry my heart but to laugh myself infront of the mirror. If ending it will be that simple, the break up will happen long ago but i know if i say it first, I will be the suffering, I will be the one crying everyday, I will be the one to plead to get back this relationship,I will be the one who will miss him everyday but not him doing all this..Another time I'm falling out of hope:)

Afterall i realise Coco was right as i stroll thru her blog sometimes ago..
The quote" Women are the stupidest when they think they could change man"

2009-06-11T06:53:00.000-07:00

Bored!!!currently at bf's house doing nothing:( Bf's family went genting few days back,i want to go but cannot off:( somemore bf is sick therefore cannot go out. Was spending infront of the computer like an hour or more,doing usual stuffs,shopping online,browsing thru ppl blog and seeing their update...went to see bf's LV slingbag that he has been keen of buying,ya gonna buy for him rarely cost me 970 bucks that i saw online.Its a petit messenger i really download the pic. Bf have gone bersark, he is shouting his police's pledge cause this week he is in charge to say the pledge, he get scolded by his sir cause he has been in police in a yr yet still cannot memorise:) Btw i am hungry but the mad guy still memorising:) he still force me to act as his sir to let him continue!!:)

2009-06-09T02:40:00.000-07:00

Don't really have anything to blog about recently:)Have not being home recently therefore cannot blog and i dun have anything to blog.Bf was sick:( has been taking him from ystd till today.Change his towel every 5 mins, fill up my water bottle everytime he finish it,feel his forehead every now and then to see whether his fever has decrease but i change the towel till i fall asleep :p as i was really tired cause i am working in the morning but on leave today cause i want to acc bf to see doctor cause i scared he will faint halfway..

Btw, my birthday is around the corner:)

I really wish to slim down cause i realised i weight alot now as bf carry me he hinted me:)
I wish to perm my hair:)
I want my Burberry classic:)
I want my RL tote bag in gold:)
I want ice cream phone in white:)
I want to go cable car dining with richard sim:)

2009-05-29T04:37:00.000-07:00

Just scroll thru some particular blogs that i always visit and i came thru this story,a touching one indeed.

Here the story goes,
There was once a girl who hated herself cause she was blind.She hated everyone except her boyfriend as he was only the one standing by her side all along. She told her boyfriend, If I can see the world, I will marry you

One day,someone donated her a pair of eyes and she could see the world including her boyfriend.

Boyfriend ask to marry her,but she was shocked as she saw her boyfriend eyes was blind and refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left in tears and left a note to her.
"Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they are yours,they were mine".

2009-05-13T22:38:00.001-07:00

Btw for yr info i am wearing clothes:)

I found out something ystd, ystd was the start of GGS:( not much money to spent pls stop myself to nearby shopping malls i will suffer from depression!!!!

Well i found a job as a tele,now then i realise why tele is not a popular job as you have to get scolded every now and then and get reject every now and then some singaporeans did not even have the heart to say'No thanks' but just straight away hang the phone after i say i am from which company.Screw them!!thus bf say i have bad temper nowadays.Belle introduce me her previous job selling frangances at counter hust like kenzo just that i selling for burberry,CK etc..

Shld i go???

2009-05-13T22:38:00.000-07:00

I am lazy to blog:)

Due to the last post, bf and i did quarrel he just get drunk in the club and i have to carry him hme all by myself and take care of him till 6 in the morning.Not much toblog about cause i am finding a new job for myself:) But i am a lazy bum so its quite difficult.Bf was telling me to go club with him but i say no cause i phobia, probabaly in this world i will be the only one getting phobia going club:) I have quite a lot of stuffs to do, shop for cousin wedding's dress and do my hair!!

2009-05-09T23:10:00.000-07:00

I out of words..
Its been been not a good day for me today and ystd.
Its just sucks and why everyone is spoilling my mood.
I have no idea why.
Ystd will be the last day i'll be a nice gf.
You are obviously taking for granted.
Stay away and i off to meet my kriscilla. I miss her:)

2009-05-08T00:34:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,BABY:) Today is baby's 21st birthday went to his hse to sleep ystd and wish him happy birthday when the clock strikes midnight.Woke up at 1pm this afternoon,Baby's mum and fairy came back and brought him a gold key necklace and i pass him his gucci wallet(thanks fairy for her help) Will be back with more updates for baby's party later on:)

Last tuesday went out with mummy,had buffet for lunch and as i saw many ppl tried perming their hair i decided to give it a try:) outcome-good:)

Let's picture do the talking den

2009-04-29T06:19:00.000-07:00

Baby 's gonna soon be his wallet:)

Back for updates:) Pardon me from being to lazy to update.Ystd was 28th again,time files its me and bf''s 6 month being together. I was glad me and him walk that far, maybe his irritating i sometimes cannot be bother bout him but he just make my day:) Went town yesterday, went to check the code number of baby's(going soon to be his) wallet for his 21st birthday. He was walking ard the boutique for 3 times to consider which one he prefer, in the end make up his mind:) After that eat then went home. Overnight at bf home yesterday went i jsut bout to fall asleep he woke me up and say' baby next time i want LV instead of gucci' HELL he is also addict to brands:)

2009-04-15T04:21:00.000-07:00

MONEY,MONEY,MONEY i am getting rather stress up with this. Bf's birthday is coming and there are so much to settle in once. How i wish i can print money out of a sudden. Bf told me i won get the money to buy wad he want his face seem to be rather sad, but my heart tells me no matter what i have to but for him cause he is important to me. Not really in a mood to blog, kinda stress:(

2009-03-27T09:59:00.001-07:00

sorry pardon me for the oppsite photo;p

Fews days back was me and bf anniversary..well meet up at first wanted to meet mummy cause bf say long time never pay her a visit le and also can meet sis and her bf but last min cancel so me and bf head to marina square went to buy havianas for our anniversary pressies:) it cause baby 90 plus to both slippers somemore he say i copy him buy the same pattern but its a anniversary present so it shld be in couple pattern wad!say le heart pain:( cause when i walk ard went to BEBE boutique saw another slipper more nice end up i brought 2 slippers in a day!! waste money:( but overall its a celebration for both

Havianas- Is a celebration for me and babay anniversary

Bebe- is a celebration i have tolerate richard sim for 5 months!!! claps for me:)

2009-03-27T09:59:00.000-07:00

BAck once again:) sorry really no time to blog cause my bf is back frm china so i have been acc him and saying at his hse for 5 days:) Bf went out so i am back home to pack my stuffs and update you guys wad i have done:)

18 march 2009-Anna's birthday

HAd real fun:) sing till high!!Let's the pics do the talking cause i am way to lazy to elaborate

19 march 2009-sentosa!!

Pics please do go to my angela website cause i am lazy to upload:)

BABY BOY,HAPPY 5 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!

2009-03-21T03:29:00.000-07:00

Back to blog again,this few days i have make myself very packed in order to make me dun think of baby but ya i failed!! Even i am fucking busy with my stuffs i will still automatically take out my phone to call or msg baby frm overseas thus my phone bill for this month is WHOA!! Even baby is at overseas but he still never fail to msg me msg that gonna give me goosebumps and make me feel bertter after all:) Thanks Richard Sim:) Baby promise to bring along next time:)Woo hoo flying over the moon:) the most important thing is baby is back tomorrow!! Yes!!

2009-03-15T05:51:00.000-07:00

Baby boy how i wish you are right beside me:( ystd baby slept over my hse till 5 am drive back his hse he and his family prepare then head to changi airport did not talk much on the car he knows i cnt bear. Reach airport ard 7 am,eat then bid baby gdbye. Feel like dying but baby still call me in the boarding bay thus make me wanna kill him! Cnt bear le still call:( Maybe its just a week but frm the first day till now i rely on baby alot so during this week i have to go independent its quite a tough one. I want to go with baby nxt time!! baby's dad even say he does not know i nv work or else he will book for me:) Yea off to meet vincent then later on go bf hse take things then msg him to report to him.

Baby i miss you alot:( dun call me la i cannot adapt eh!! 7 mre days you will be back:)

2009-03-09T05:23:00.000-07:00

Time now is 8.23pm shld be the time i am getting to fetch bf but its postponed! yea mainly bf was hold to leave work cause some stupid asshole call and report there will be a bomb in yishun today so he cannot go WTF!have to petrol at yishun:( poor baby.The day before went club with bf again once again thanks kelly for yr I.C :) I swear i was fucking drunk that nite bf too i sit on the roadside and vomit bf saw he sit beside me and vomit. So paiseh went back bf home and drop dead woke up at 9.30am then meet fairy and her mum to IMM.Did pedi for bf's mummy and her frens then aftermath go fetch bf. Yea so readers if you girls are intersted in having mani and pedi tag me maybe i can provide home service:) currently:) Thats all:) going off to meet vincent the asshole and my sis!!

2009-03-06T03:15:00.000-08:00

Once again i am back whenever i am free to update.Working and slacking contains all my time.Fews days back went out with mummy and sis went shopping and change my line as i cnt endure the monthly hundreds.Mostly everyday stay at bf hse so therefore today i am back home to acc mummy and daddy.Seriously how i wish fairy's shop can be open earlier so i can mug myself at wrk and stop thinking about all those rubbish.Did not manage to slp proberly cause have been having late nights:( Blame me for this!!!) and acc vincent that guy not to slp he describe himself as ton king!!Kns!!thus lead me to quarrelling with bf(jealous) he is a jealous king!!

I think i cannot hold any longer!!

2009-02-27T09:21:00.000-08:00

After 2 full weeks od slacking yeah i am back to my busy life:) working part-time now till end of march then straight away go help fairy. Well the part time shop is frm 10am to 10pm daily(omg gonna kill me and led bf doesn't really want me to work cause he say he scared he heart pain cause its real tiring:)) but i only work for 3 to 4 days a week,2 days for bf and other 1 or 2 days gonna go learn manicure frm fairy so i am a busy girl!!Today went bf hse at 3,then cabbed down to IMM to learn basic mani and pedi help angel(fairy's daughter) and bf's mummy to do basic mani and pedi(buffing,pluck dead skin,filing and massage:) have real fun thou:)Have dinner and went hme:)

Ya btw just to promote fairy teaching class and website( you can also link it at my link area)--http://awardnails.com/

2009-02-21T04:54:00.000-08:00

3 pics with this babe she never fails my day with her:)

michelle and me:)

Good girl stay home today:)while his idoitic bf was out! No one to blame yea cause i wanted to stay at hme suddenly dun feel like stepping out of the hse,bf ask wanna go dinner with his family-NO!,wanna go chevrons -NO! and yea bf get rather pissed off:) Went double O previous nite nt fun all malay cause its a thurs nite EEe, pull my spirits down i did not get the drunk for the first time i went to club.Can't wait for few more mths i will be 18 wee-we-weets!!!no need lend IC frm kelly:)I dun wanna go with bf i wanna go with my gf(s) they have been disturbing me for long time ago.

p/s-found out some bitch still like to comments and wandering behind my back:)

2009-02-15T01:38:00.000-08:00

my decoration for my shelves:)

Thanks baby for the roses:)

Our valentines gift:)

Happy valentines!!

I am back with my rantings:)Ystd as valentine met bf then head to eat pepper lunch,bf like country bumpkin dunno wad is that taught him how to stir,pour sauces and stuff,haha like blur king:)Then head to town. Was kinda upset he did not give me roses:(reached town went to buy both our valentine present my coach wrislet at taka then aftermath went to paragon brought him his A/X tee that he like so much kinda like love at first sight!!Cause me ard 130 bucks for a kinda plain tee.kills him!!then we went walk ard shops dun feel like eating cause i nt in a good mood le cause bf's army friend ask him go power house therefore i have to go hme alone carrying all the stuffs,walk till wisma bf wanna shit then we went toliet obviously i shld be the one waiting for him so i called angela while waiting then talk till half suddenly saw 1 bouquet of flowers infront of me i went speechless saw bf panting and say 'happy valentine,baby' Omg i also cried!!After all its actually a suprise he lied!!Omg i am flying so ya i let him go power hse in the end so i take all the stuffs hme alone like mad girl so many ppl looking at me:) But its really a memeorable day for me

Thanks baby for everything you have done:)I love you!!

2009-02-12T21:55:00.000-08:00

Later gonna back to work to help replacement.Wobble legs probably due to long time nv work. Btw lovelies saw all your tag thanks for you guys care and concern its back to normal:) Everything is as swt as last time its just some communication error:) So thanks you girls melt my heart!!Last of all thanks Fairy:) for helping me to sort things out with bf:) must learn tips frm you
Btw lovelies frm kenzo i already told lavonne i gonna tender so 13 march share be the last day you girls shle know the reason the schedule is way pathetic for me so do take care!!will miss you ladies:)

会呼吸的痛

2009-02-11T08:09:00.000-08:00

He told me he cannot and did not put 100% for this R/S,neither this one or the past he has.I was shock thoughts running in my mind but i can't talk.He explain clearly not he does not want but he cannot do it yeah craps. He told me all alond he is that way not him changing but I,yet i noe i am as after many dishearting r/s i choose to protect myself.He told me that i create a barrier between us and the reason is i dun wanna get hurt.I did not know wad to say but the only choice was to open the car door and walk away.I tried not to think,but i dunno wad shld i do,continue or just walk away no longer coming back.I think its gonna end thats the only way

Not all relationships can have happy endings. Sometimes, a perfect relationship also comes to a day where it have to end.....

2009-02-06T03:47:00.000-08:00

My coach wrislet!!!thanks baby in advance

Rated:4/5 damm funny

rated2/5 damm boring!!me and bf almost slept in the movie

Bf watch that cost me a bomb!!

I'm back miss me thou:) Work,bf and meeting my lovelies out for date have occpied all my time even for the time i slp! did not went much shopping after pay is out cause you know valentine is coming and i gonna save money:( Yeah red packets was spent to bf's watch..valentine again waste money..Bf was asking me wad i wanted so i say the thing i like the most*smiles* then he say:'I know la coach wrislet okay la buy lor" wee-e-weets my wrislet!! i shall wait, btw 'happy valentine:)few days back me and bf watch movies buth nt bad la..thumbs up!!

bye gtg le go queenstown fetch bf!!

2009-01-22T00:34:00.000-08:00

Today is a thursday:) and its a off for me:)Just came back frm kbox with anna and michy ,picture will be up till they sent me.Was real tired went out till late night ystd. Bf went town area to shop for CNY clothes.He only manage to buy one tee and ya he is picky nothing suit his liking.went cityhall to find fairy and coco!!But I manage to get something that me and bf like damm freaking like=BEBE tank top and tee*smile* ask bf to buy and he really buy for me both! how sweet of him cost him 130 bucks if i am nt wrong cause one have 50%:) after that wait for bf's friend to arrive to buy again= pedro shoes,was wondering why so many ppl like to wear that white shoes??After that starbucks and K-pool till 10 plus trian hme,take car then go boon lay gamble again expected bf lose:( yushu won ard 100 plus he was overjoyed!!thats all for ystd btw no pics for ystd cause my phone sucks and i need a camera badly!!!pics are up for angela and my date,pepper lunch!!!

i love BEBE logo:)

Btw thanks bf for yr prssies!!

2009-01-20T09:37:00.000-08:00

Saw what anna and michy wrote,really woke me up.
To my michelle-(my best working partner)
Really thanks alot alot for what you wrote to me and anna,thanks for everything you have help us to patch things back,you are right frm wad you say.really thanks a million:) to pay back your kindness, i promise i will be much early to reach counter and irritate you mre!!( chu yi chi shu,chu er chi shu,chu san chi su:)

To anna:I shall mend my mistake, i already apologised this is my wrong i will admit. we shall hold no grudges, really miss the past where we are closer than whoever even xn also cnt seperate us. miss starbucks and fullerton even sitting shawn and daryl car but thats nt the main:)

Thats all i can say really felt much relieve:) after all we share hold no hatred:) let bygones br bygones

2009-01-14T08:33:00.000-08:00

Hiee lovelies, i'm back:)Just reach hme wanted to eat at boonlay with bf's sister=fairy and his cousin as i really that hungry but ya something bf mention totally turn me off, i rather hungry then continuing listening. seriously he have no brains i did mention before he can mention anything . But nt fucking tell me how wonderful and memorable you and your ex were. If you really miss last time and dun appreciate how we spent time compare to last time then jolly well go back and find her!! Sorry i just need to rants my anger.
you girls just think if you guy keep mentioning bout how wonderful her ex is every now and then, it really turn you off..Back to topic tomorrow paragon morning=shag,sales aren't gd for the month=stress. Life aren't good for me!! life really sucks!!

2009-01-10T06:45:00.000-08:00

yea:) suprise to see myself at home that early. ystd went mustafa at ard 1 plus with bf and his friends bf went to shop for his soccer boots went mustafa for the first time the things sold there are damm cheap even kenzo perfumes probably half of our usual price no wonder nobody wanna buy frm us= therefore sales nt gd.then went to have supper AGAIN!!!( bf and mummy told me i have grow fat alot,i actually deny but after seeing myself in the mirror*screams* i have to start a diet frm today onwards*winks* went hme at ard 5 in the morning then K.O!!today went up ard 3 wtf!!

P/s: to richard sim--thanks for everything:)

2009-01-02T16:27:00.000-08:00

Its 2009-New lives,experience,love,obstacles. thrown away the unhappy ones let it hold on to the past.2008 aren't a grateful year for me,ups and downs occurs i tried to handle everything even hold it thru its tough but no matter how hard i survive and i learnt better in handling everything myself. I dun rely on any,I promise i will never shed much tears as b/f and i make it:) I believe whenever there is a will there's a way:)
I wish 2009 will be a better year and i hope to learnt more things as before,and i am not a little girl who shed tears at night this i promise myself:)

continue working at kenzo and nv stop loving working there, know more new faces and nv stop loving my lovelies-coco,lee san,anna.amanda,felicia,li bin(ai ren),shirley darling,joannaand cindy. They entertain me at work!!
Found him but its isn't that easy we shall see:)
18 soon wohoo!!club!!but not sounding intersting as i can go in already:)
study MDIS:) miss studying!!but do i look like one
More money:)

2009-01-02T16:05:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! sorry was real busy lately:) almost forgotten i have a blog:) well lets summarise:

28 of dec- went downtown east with bf,eat pasta there then head down to geylang eat stringray and tian ji zhou(thumds up) then hme swt hme. btw happy 2 months boyfriend

30of dec-went michelle birthday party,ate steamboat and kenzo girl gathering i have loads of fun!!

31 and 1-went countdown with bf saw fireworks seriously its damm gorgeous,went lau pat sa ate carrot cake and satay after that we play on the streets(kinda stupid yea!!cause we cnt find a cab then we took the first trian hme till chinese garden cnt tahan the tiredness then cab hme reach hme K.O hahas. Its a memorable day for me and bf:)

ystd meet my felicia:) Love you!! love cam whore with her!

P.s felicia pls send me the pics at mich birthday!!

2008-12-30T20:33:00.000-08:00

Promise back with pics:) Off to work:) last day of the year probably countdown:)

2008-12-15T23:18:00.000-08:00

Off days are damm shiok! My half a month schedule was pathetic thou but good point is i manage to have some rest. So thats the reason why i have the whole morning to blog and online shopping:) Pay day coming but soon the money will be all spent for christmas pressies btw thanks huili and yushu for the christmas present that you brought for me and bf.. Morning bf came over to slp at my hse then we went to at lunch and he went back to drive his mum to IMM.later gonna go out:)Its gonna be christmas but i still have to work on both days thou:( Promise there will be pics as on the 23 gonna have christmas exchange party with my darlings collegues and on the 24 kbox with my lovelies:) Thats all gonna shop for my new year clothes:)

2008-12-12T19:46:00.000-08:00

My nephew, jonathan and nicholas btw they are twins

Back for updates:) Few days back went to yushu's brother's gf birthday party did not enjoyed much even have a small tiff with bf! but after talking we are normal again. Yushu's sister saw me and tel bf (as she know some fortune telling) she told bf that i am the type of girl that dun know wad is saving only know how to spend:), so bf restrict me frm spending:( Btw bf and me were glad that huili and yushu seems to be back once again..

Last monday went out with mummy and sister went carlton hotel for buffet:) after tht went shopping, brought my fake lashes and jacket

P.S to huili: I am happy for you!! you did it!!

2008-12-06T03:44:00.000-08:00

My Gucci bag!!

He trying to show off his 100 plus shoes

me and bf

Just woke up:) Now having headache yet having mensel cramps!! the feelings sucks.Went town to shop and walk walk with boyfriend order java chip for him he like it thou:) Saw amanda and his guy. After that went simei find boyfriend's friend then cab down to Double O ytds with boyfriend and his friends, as its was one of his friend's bitrhday:) Order 10 tequila shot, 5 jugs of dunno what coke cannot rmb the taste is odd and 3 jugs of vodka lime..everyone was tipsy. Seriously i was quite tipsy yet bf is too club till ard 3 then we went home. Bf keep making noise in the cab!! Today woke up at 8 acc bf go take mc then i went home cause cannot tahan yet poor bf still have to go his friend father funeral..Btw brought my Gucci bag it cost me 666 dollars!!and boyfriend promise to buy me a bebe racerback but still prefer him buy coazh wrishlet:) for christmas

2008-12-01T06:13:00.000-08:00

Ystd went toa payoh have dinner:) my cousin baby 'mian yue'. saw all my cousin:) i felt that we getting more and more closer. That feeling is something we cannot say out using words:) maybe wanna go clubbing with them soon!!loves you all!!!

2008-12-01T06:04:00.000-08:00

On the 28 of dec- Boyfriend and mine one month anniversary(slow eh!)me and boyfriend realise we only knew each other for more than a month but we seems to be together for a long time dunno why we both have the same feelings:)
Bf went malaysia few days ago and came back only ystd i only meet him for less a hr ystd as bf tired so headed home and slp..went shopping with huili no photos cause she went with her mum then i forgot :p I overspent ystd brought more than 50 bucks:) update soon busy with work!!!

2008-11-24T03:30:00.000-08:00

My qing ai de:) sound mushy she called me that too!!

My kenzo lovelies:)

my HUILI!!! never regret meeting her!!

Felicia and me

Baby:)

Really busy recently. Work and getting strong aren't easy. well manage to get thru it:) its been more than a month since i upload my recent stuffs. Many new things happen
1) new boyfriend:)
2) new lifestyle:)
3) new lovelies:) ( my kenzo girls)
I have to admit i have been stronger since that day:)

2008-11-15T00:43:00.001-08:00

New blogskin:) thanks angela:)

2008-10-22T07:21:00.000-07:00

you cut me like a knife..
Too busy for updates, have not been sleeping enough, have been going home at ard morning even i have to be up for work tomorrow, i know WTF..went shop at least four times a week with belle. They indeed have much problems i cannot deny..Finally understand belle's feeling really cannot be solved in a sudden.Hope everything will be fine after all.. He called me today told me why i suddenly changed that much i no longer call him or msg him. I was like, DUH!! you were the one who go away from me when i wanted you, now i have struggled thru,WTF coming back _l_ understand!! Love i Miss you!!

2008-10-08T05:22:00.000-07:00

The boy you used to beI'm not sad for it's over, but glad that it once belonged to me. The hurt that you left, made me cried a river & build a bridge so i can get over with it. Moving on is simple. It's what you left behind made it difficult. I know i have said goodbye so many times before, but all roads lead me back to you. But as for now, seeing you living well enough without me around, there's nothing much more for me to expect..

2008-10-08T05:03:00.000-07:00

Its been nearly five days from the last day i blog:) well honestly speaking, boyfriend and me broke up.We both have decided this way, all along we both knew we are not meant to be each other but becuz of love we try to hang it thru.Both of us are stubborn we both want to have our frredom,bf is busy with his and i busy with mine.We did not even have time to sit and have a good talk. I knew bf was stress afterall. I can even see he do not want to end up like this I knew its going to end sooner or later. The last night bf met me he hug him and i knew it gonna be the last. I did not blame him for anything but i just hate his temper but no matter what i can hold on to it. I did not break a fuss but how longer can i hold? Maybe not long:) I do not want to turn this way, I miss the days he come to my house , cook and even wash for me treating me like a princess. I miss ths days we spend the whole night hugging each other to slp. I miss the days he play and tease me.I miss the days when we both cried and wipe each other tears.He is the only one that i willing to throw my heart out whenever i talk to him cause i can see he talk his heart out too.I miss everything.I admit he is a good one:)

Met wawa ,nana and wawa's mum ystd and the past few days, they really console me.I can see wawa's mum dote me inside out she is only elderly that understand me knowing what happen to me and bf willing to shower me with love.I saw they really care bout me they realy talk me round and willing to patch up things from me and bf,they are here to talk to me yet wawa's dad talking to bf. I was touched by them.Thanks is all i can say:)

The longer I am holding onto the more we will get hurt

2008-10-01T05:36:00.000-07:00

this are the pics i snatched frm the girls i lazy to transfer eh

Baby went malaysia for hari raya:( I was fucking alone here with four walls surronding. The feelings is WTF.Went out with andrew today, he went to get Bebe hoodie for jennifer Bdae. Damm lucky huh! Promise him to buy a ZARA formal for him and he will buy a bebe tee in return. Wad a deal:) Brought a topshop kinda like camisole today in electric blue:) I wanted to buy GAP tee in black went vivo to look for it but it was OOS =.= anyone know can update me cause its urgent.Baby is back tomorrow he promise to meet the first:) Meeting my Love tomorrow. promise there will be pics up:)

2008-09-26T03:27:00.000-07:00

sorry really have time to blog:) everyday i am feel with stuffs to do.Baby is busy bout his stuffs and i am busy bout my stuffs, we dun even have time for each other--Thats the problem. I quit my job as a tuition coordinator, have a rest for nearly a week then start my work with coco at kenzo hope this job suits me better:p tomorrow going highlight my hair as i saw echa's hair is gorgeous. wanted to go with her but last min she going with her guy instead. Baby also want to copy me say like this then look like couple..=.= tomorrow also going but malay costumes no choice bf malay so must wear malay costumes is a form of respect. So tomorrow going geylang with sis, yan and raj probably. btw i upload some pics of me and mummy going sushi tei:)

2008-09-21T02:23:00.000-07:00

He told me he have to think all over again for our relationship.He told me we could not communicate. He claim he want to be alone. He told me i have been controlling all of his life.He left me for his friends.He cried when he told me that. He was giving attitude all along.

WTF. WHAT IS lOVE???

2008-09-15T05:15:00.000-07:00

doesn't she look cute?

On the following sunday meet angela ,cent and two guys( sorry i forgot their name thou) went sento play frisbee and swimming went home ard 8 plus have talks with vincent seriously compare to many of my guy friend he is the only one that i can trust.

Fews weeks ago meet cent and angela to chat.meet at jp and slack:)nth much just a small meet.

I think i gonna close my blog. no point having a blog when i not a famous blogger.i am neither a girl who like to attract attention:) but i am still considering;) Mummy and daddy is away frm taiwan left me and sis at home.its haven been ages seems i meet with my old classmates, seriously i miss them:)

meet love ystd saw her and alvin, i think i have to settle down. no more unwanted love.

2008-08-15T23:59:00.000-07:00

I suddenly have this feelings. Its been ages that i have girls night. We chat,laugh,cry and even curse guys together. Lovely nights are the times we are together as one but not now. I just miss the feeling even sis do..Memories are the things we remember, we each have our separate paths go. I don't blame anyone for all this but its a choice of you and me. thats all i can say.

Ystd samantha call and we chat for quite a long time. I realised this is the first time me and her talking on phone:) maybe i find it kinda weird as we are not very close. i am still walking for my m)phosis transparent tote. when will it arrive!! gonna meet angela and vincent later on!

2008-08-03T05:46:00.000-07:00

ya cam whore ignore me:)

Rotting at home with papi and mummi is wad i do today:) felt rather glad cause it has been seems ages when i stay at home for the whole sunday. baby was sick therefore he is staying at home sleeping.. get well soon:p Good news!! I have order a new maltese puppy gonna wait for around 2 months time to take her back as he need nutrtion now..he gonna be cute cannot wait to see him. i name hin' Dor Dor' I know it gonna cost a bomb$$$. Jus leave MCP( my exz company) gonna miss them:( start my new work as a coordinator at a tutor agency..commision$$:) thats all for today

2008-07-26T23:31:00.000-07:00

I look kinda pale..ignore it:)

me and wei ge

me and my boss

me and all my collegues

me and xevon

me and samantha

Mummy's birthday cake:)

baby took this while i am sleeping

2008-07-26T08:58:00.000-07:00

Strangers to friends,friends to flare,flare to lovers. The sweetest word is your name and the greatest thing is your love:)

I remember our past,I used to play the waiting game. I didn't expect you would be back again everyday that you aren't with me ,every lonely might i was alone.everytime something got me so low and down.I remember wwhat you told,you were lost too.thats was the only thing keeping me thinking the memories and ideas of seeing you again

I not being moody just find it meaningful:)pics cannot be upload i will upload tomorrow instead:p

2008-07-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

I am free!!! working everyday leads me to tiredness. went out with mummy on monday went park orchard hotel for thai food..sucks! not much choices shall be the last time we go..Did my tongue piercing on tue:) now its still swollen..thanks yan for helping me to pierce:)i have difficulty on eating:( porridge is wad i must eat..but i dun care!! ate pizza today mummy birthday."HAPPY BIRTHDAY"!!! Baby and yan came over and eat..have fun:) ate durain too sissy was running all round the house hahas. i finally brought my FCUK tee loves it! btw sissy is working at MCP too but i went home alone yan fetch her today,he went to do tattoo, a corp cost him 50 bucks but its fucking nice:) baby was affect by the temptation so he doing his leg tattoo..there goes his pay;( sissy gonna tattoo too. i get affected by tattoos now by friends around me:) TATTOOS IS ART!!

2008-07-18T22:39:00.000-07:00

everyone has happy moments or even sad ones. but no matter wad we must be strong..its easy to say but if i am in the state of this girl i maybe cannot take it..try scroll this blog that i saw recently she is strong i must admit:www.memyselfmine.blogspot.com

sissy told me: anna ask bout me whether i am doing well,thanks for your asking,i am doing well. wish you well with mr chan too:) all the best:)

2008-07-18T22:16:00.000-07:00

well, i am free now:) therefore i could post one entry for the time being..Bi at home going neighbours wedding so i am stuck at home but at least i can take a rest. Have lots of fun at the bbq thanks for everyone including daddy and mummy.i received some presents not too many but then i appreciate it..
Gonna thanks:
-Baby: your money for the bbq party,you kinda waste alot.love you:)
-mummy: miss sixty perfume:)
-daddy,grandpa,uncle and mummy's friends:red packets:)
-cousin: BEBE tee:)
-raj:for your absolute vodka and your chiva:)
-love:red packet hahas you sound so old:)
-samantha: m)phosis transparent big:)
-mcp(my company):for the card and the thumbdrive:)
I think thats all and thanks for the best wishes by,angela,andrew and SISSY. thanks:)
Pics i gonna upload all at a time including the pics in the bbq and the celebration occur at my office but the pics are al at sissy camera but cupin take it to taiwan for army training so i have to wait for him to be back:)

2008-07-07T08:06:00.000-07:00

Love is the emblem of eternity..
I just want you to be happy,thats all that i ask for,even if i have to leave you,i can take the sorrow...
Sometimes,somethings are better left unspoken or not known forever..

Thanks for everything,i love you,baby,you're the sweetest illusion:)

2008-07-01T08:40:00.000-07:00

hiee, i am back:) long week yea!nothing much just cannot wait for my bbq:) gonna have fun..money is all me and baby need cause we wanted to buy 2 psp,1 for baby,1 for me,dvd portable= so everytime i go baby hse can watch tv:) last of all baby's KR!!! cannot wait but still must wait no choice:(ok that all nothing to say or either dun wan mention much cause i dun like KPO readers:)

sissy: thanks for introducing baby.. me and baby wanted to thanks you seriously

baby: thanks for your fetching,your forgiveness,caring,love,kiss and hugs! I LOVE MY SHA BOY!!!

2008-06-17T09:17:00.001-07:00

Fews things to cheer for
1) 20 more days will be my birthday:)
2) on july 5 and 6 bbq party at east coast:)
3)baby gonna pay large amount for the party:)
4)i am leading happy life now:)
5) everyone is celebrating with me i think i gonna have fun:)

went grandpa hse for a week,to run away from mummy bout my tattoo:) mummy saw it today well she did not mention anything so far. maybe will do the last piece of art but still considering.. Something stupid that baby done today that i dunno whether to laugh at him or even shout at him, i went home to change baby was outside,mummy told him to come in so he went in,i told him to hide his tattoo but he forgot so daddy saw his tattoo kinda stupid eh? went rounding few days ago went geylang( baby drive) was shocked they were countless:)you shld know wad i meant:)went to clarke quay where ppl go clubbing walk ard saw my ex school teacher went clubbing i was shocked she wore so different:0 gonna upload all my pics soon after party.

2008-06-12T22:51:00.000-07:00

i think i gonna close this blog sooner or later or maybe put into invited readers no point talking bout anyone..no more anna,no more banana no more syakir!! rather to keep it to myself:)

2008-06-11T21:21:00.000-07:00

well,i know it.I told sissy yesterday anna gonna think that the previous post is talking bout her. sissy bet with me she will start to think wildly again well she came out truth..lucky i did not bet with her or else i suffer get loss hahas:) well i talking bout my friend and her girlfriend how you know that i talking bout you girl, i already say i won be doing stuffs like quarreling on the blog.for wad do i get anything in return?NO! i just felt say for my friend so i wrote this down..at least to give him comfort. you and clement is ( to say in rude way) is fucking not my problem, i not so KPO to get into other business, you choose who you think is right at least you are happy..so ask or even know furthur who i am refering to then start all your hurting words. me and syakir are fine, i saw him yesterday we are ok with everything now he go on his life i go on mine. nothing wrong at all:) pls ask before doing anything that hurt me by your words thats all i can say..i not asking for quarrel or anything

2008-06-11T00:01:00.000-07:00

well everything has to come to an end.. i dun thanks anyone for this cause no one wanted to..so there is not point to 'thanks' anyone specially in the blog:) think when you write something cause it will hurt someone, or even stand in other ppl shoes when you wrote this:) no offence yea:) just wanna tell you to think bout others even you hate him deeply in your heart. well i dun bother to go back as sissy told me something it come out truth i really do miss that time when she just turn wonderful..suddenly mature but well everything turn back:( at first i thought he was strict but yea he is doing for her on good.sorry '_____' we cannot let it stay at the same path but she U-turn:( just done my 2nd tattoo on my leg-cherry blossoms:) the defintion of it is to rmb that life is short so we must cherish every moment in the life..sha gonna fetch me today:) thanks:)well ya someone say something awful bout me,well i cried after i heard it well jollywell pls think bout wad you say it hurts maybe in your heart i am one..fine i got nothing to say your brain,your thinking but jollywell wash your mouth and ask your mom whether its right to say tat to a girl even that girl is one!!i suddenly found out that i have friends that dun think before they talk.. i not refering to anyone if you think its you then its you!

i like to led my own life:) dun used your thinking can jollywell ask!

2008-06-07T22:14:00.001-07:00

sometimes i found it really funny,all humans is the same they talk back bout each other behind their back and become real friends after all that happened.kinda joke:) ya maybe his not a trustworthy guy, maybe we cannot communicate, maybe his a mother fucker ,maybe he is just wanted to be loved by telling us bout the unreal past..everyone has past memories either some are wonderful,some are bad you cannot just judge a person just within your eyes and not to know him futhurmore.ya he went for' holidays ' but not just because of this then he is a jerk or cannot even change himself to a better one..you told me that you was angry of how he treat me, well you were best friends now at least others will stand beside me when i am weak may i ask where are you? having fun? i think so:) care for me by tpying on msn or even type on your blog will heals all?piece of joke:)i did not meant to be sarcastic but it hurts to see you are away from me and when i calls you,you are out with the one that i dislike wad if i say i go out clement still hangs ard with him and left you alone in no where..girl i say by you every single night to hear you pours out your pain..i even cried with you..but me no one know how pain am i when i really wanna choose the right guy end up he ditch me..i was all alone to face it..i did not want to say out when i was with all of you cause i know yu willl just say'ah ya nvm de we help you find better one' will this works heals all?

thanks mr chan,for caring me and wanted to say both our r/s back together before its too late:) but you just dunno hw i feels the feelings cannot be describe..its not the real me all along, i seems to cheerful in front of you. if its turns to a bad ending i just can say too bad and let it be..we cannot force anything just let it go just the way it was,but no matter wad turn to be, treasure your r/s:) maybe just let me fall dun pull me up cause its hard to face the reality..you know it too maybe too much falling i will wake up one day:) i just wanna you and anna to stay beside me and keep me happy:)

2008-06-05T23:53:00.000-07:00

am stressed out right now,ppl say they understand how i feel but i did not do you know or not.i have no comment. you just think that all long you are joking and fooling around with me. joking is one thing its not that i cannot take jokes but do you know everything have a limit.i just frustrated over everything one after can all of you give me a break. dun you know falling down and climbing up again is way too diffcult..'i love you but just dunno how to treat you right?' its the excuse you gave.well i was clever enough to tell myself well at least you love me. girls,maybe you have go thru all this as well,telling someone to forget is way too easy but if you in my shoes can you?ya maybe you all say i forgot but girls you guys went thru all this with the support of your current boyfriends what bout me? i have just to overcome this all by myself. i do not have any one to support me every time i fall. rmb, you girls or boyfriend support are totally different. you guyd told me i not suitable for sha,maybe you guys are right but if you are sha's friends i hurt him will you guys like, same things i dun wanna hurt him. you guys know how poor thing he is. i know you guys care dun wanna me to get hurt,but why dun you tell all those guys to stop hurting me. you know who you are, i hate you!!! maybe its my fault to leave you but wad you told my aunt you willl be back, btut where are you,i really have suffer so much after you left..mr and mrs banana thanks for you guys to care for me dun worry i promise i won fall hard cause i am scared:) cause i am scared of falling and climbing up again:)

2008-05-31T07:56:00.000-07:00

yea came home just from town went out with baby,anna,mr banana,baby friends and 3 girls that i have no idea who there are..i was broke:( but i need to buy my contact lens or else i will be blind..today sadly to say we did not went sento its raining heavily since i woke so ended up we went town:) today the rain cause me moody serously i hate raining days! should be suprised that why i came home at 11 plus in a sat night cause my baby was sick he feel like vomiting after sitting a long trip of buses so anna and banana went home straight then me and baby took BUS(again) home buy red bull then i went home MYSELF!

i wonder why we did not click,maybe we are not suitable or maybe we are from different world..maybe i am just lying to myself all along well that will e better cause i still cannot face the truth

2008-05-29T07:35:00.000-07:00

when out with love to vivo then to PM to have our girl chat:) with mic

neos are fun:)

me,mei jie and love!

yes pics are here i snatch it from love blog:)

2008-05-27T08:05:00.000-07:00

i know still no pics love is still busy:( bad news= papi saw my tattoo..died but he nv say anything my second one is coming:) going buy contact lens on friday and makan with anna,sat sento with baby,anna,mr chan cannot wait..baby ask me whether i swimming anot i say:'NO' then he say 'then go for was swim la' then i say'i scared i drown then he say'i at there you scared ar' baby seriously cause you there i more scared hahas no la:)promise there will be pics:) this is the last week baby going tekong wohoo!!

baby you are right how long am i going to lied myself to sleep,maybe i am too foolish but i choose it....how come till today,i dun know how to love myself...

loving someone that does not love you is like reaching a star, you know you 'll never reach it but you just gonna keep in trying

2008-05-25T02:24:00.000-07:00

Just send baby to busstop.ya he is going back to tekong again..seriously the feelings sucks when i have to bid good bye with him,the feeling where nothing can be describe felt sad but manage to be strong. baby know i am crying but ya he is hard hearted even laugh at me..the bus came in no time then he alight the bus the most saddest thing is he dun even bother to turn round and look!! but ya baby say i not going to died i still see him next week hahas...this is the last week go tekong and that means he can come back eveyday again wohoo!!! baby was late he even dun have time buy cigg so no choice..some more baby prepaid LOW!!! either i top for him or no calling for one weeks ....baby talk me round ya i am still a girl and i will get mami and papi to worried maybe i will go home early or talk to them for at least more freedom yea baby correct??ya going out soon to meet sissy and anna:)work tomo boring

maybe there is something that no matter how i try, i cannot replace it in your heart

2008-05-23T01:05:00.000-07:00

hiee!! i am blogging at work well my boss is out so here i am:) baby went field camp i miss him like crazy but keep myself occupied in order not to let myself crazy.. baby is out today wohoo!! he sleeping at camp now call baby he sound so sick..worried me:( baby told me something that i was unexpected but i was glad to hear that thanks baby i love you..baby so poor thing eveyday tortune by army cannot slp so ke lian..love still haven send me my pics but i think soon la soon la..i sound a little crazy i know..after work meeting baby then home!!take cab maybe baby too tired after go home bath meet anna darling go eat..tomo still have to work then baby come fetch thanks baby wo ai ni!!

2008-05-16T08:35:00.000-07:00

i have never been myself during all this things happen i am not the real me now when aunt say i change to a different girl a totally different me as she say that all the thoughts run thru my mind..ya indeed she is right..i am not longer me,i used to have a carefree life with all my girlfriends surrounding no heartaches but just laughter but now its has all been crashed up by my stupidness well i cannot blame anyone but myself. i have totally forgotten linus but just bad memories came along my mind. darling bele is sick get well soon eh:) baby is coming back tomorrow:) touch up and go town wohoo!! went vivo with love today have fun we suddenly feel that we need to buy alot of stuffs anyway GSS is coming and ther goes my pay..love got boyfriend now wish them can work out well but happy to see her like this:) love you are my only BFF and i love you!!!thanks for eveything you cheer me up!!pics soon gonna post when love send me

2008-05-10T22:13:00.000-07:00

moody was back:( he just cannot leave me alone. these few days i was thinkng over and over again..i love him that why i give all my understanding to him,even my ex that i love fucking much dun have such treatment i hope anna,mr chan and sissy can see..i did not ask back for anything.enough is enough. why do belle and sissy have better ones then me!!!probably single is better!!!wad the hell is wrong with your attitude that i have to give my understandings when you show your fucking attitude towards me!! i dun own you any fucking shit!!! i love you,i give my understandings all to you even my own relatives say i change to a better one wad i get in the end..its just all craps!! i know you was hurt by your ex but my problem why must you think treating girls good they will betray..stop having the stupid thinking that all girls are the same!! do you think that all girls can tolerate your fucking attitude!! if i can dun love you i rather go single i rather dun know you!! BUT ITS JUST A LITTLE TOO LATE WAD DONE IS FUCKING DONE!!!

2008-05-08T07:45:00.000-07:00

me and sissy

darling,raj,yan,me

me and darling

well i am back..ya all have ended nobody is giving me trouble all thanks to baby who solve it for me:) thanks baby i love you..the only problem i was facing nw is missing him cause he is at tekong:( no choice army guy,suprisily i am not the one that is complaining but baby.nothing much just have fun everyday,working and fooling around with my collegues in the morning went to meet the gang after work then call baby..wohoo!!went out with baby on sat to clarke quay all i can say fun:) pics coming soon..baby coming out on sat,he going buy phone for himself i acc him,then i go touch up for my tattoo baby acc me:) maybe going out with baby camp mates go shopping..then go drink..i bet with baby something i noe he will win..

baby i miss you alot alot. you make me become strong again..i really want to thanks you for making me laugh and pamper and dote me..esp your hugs and kisses..i know i never regret finding you..i just want you to tell me everything in your heart

2008-05-02T00:19:00.000-07:00

I dun have the idea when i last blog. well many things happen to me and my closest girlfriends esp belle. belle have a been in a difficult situation at first but now i know she did make the right choice for her and i am glad for her.. well for me i have several mood swings, and i have let baby suffer well i dunno should i still call baby or syakir..i think i will back when everything has come to an end..thanks to you i have suffer that much thru this few months i did not know wad i wan. the first time is you then cupin then now baby. why all of you must treat me in such a way.

ziela, you are lucky to have budi i just wish both of you everlasting. may not be going there frequently i just dun want trouble arise

darling belle, you are lucky to have mr chan he wake my sense up after he talk to me that night.he is mature but he's too oily.hahas

sissy you is good and funny just listen to him at times cause wad he tell you to do sometimes is right for you

2008-04-21T05:57:00.000-07:00

I am back:) many things happen. i found big brother who dote on me and friends who cheer me up. i did something terrible big ask me if you want to know.Some misunderstood happen between me and shafiq but he came to apologise and i shall not talk bout it. i found the one i love and i think i made the right choice:) baby is at tekong for 7 weeks i have to bear and ziela came comfort me and together with the gang.i did not cry as i was sending baby to the cab but he kiss me at the forehead and off he went.. its rather dramatic i know:) no pics i lazy to upload..have been not meeting love and angela i miss both of you:)

boyfriend is the sweetest illusion and love is never an illusion